Sunday, January 01, 2017

I took a TWO year hiatus??

HOW did I go 2 years without a post?

I really started to become conflicted about blogging..  I have become conflicted about alot in the last few years. I can remember turning 36 and for some reason.. started worrying about everything. Am I a good Mom? Am I eating too much meat? Am I a good wife? Are my kids involved in enough activities? Does my Instagram already have a post of my Avo toast?  Am I an introvert? An Extrovert? Should we buy a house? Am I a fun Mom? Do I nag my husband too much?
Calm down.

So much happened in the last few years. We bought a house, sold it, bought a camper, sold it, went to Hawaii, my business took off and I was busy as could be, stressed as could be and running like crazy from volunteering, to client meetings, to coffee dates, lunch dates, to soccer practice, dance, working out at a fancy gym and going to hot yoga to try and relax in between.. 
We lived across the street from the beach and 
life really was awesome, busy but still awesome. 
Hubby gets an email one day with an amazing job opportunity in Nor Cal..
me, being the supportive "can handle anything" person says..

(insert eyeroll here)
Hubby got this job and before I know it..


Moved from our amazing home in our glorious neighborhood across the street from my favorite place.. the beautiful ocean. I left all my friends and my family and we took a HUGE leap.

I really had no idea how attached to this life I was. I have traveled the world, I love a road trip and I am a free spirit, always up or an adventure.. right? 
The real answer is? NOPE. Somewhere down the road.. that person was lost and I had no idea.

I called and reached out to everyone I could who had made a move, lived up North and I cried on the shoulders of all my girlfriends.. we had multiple wine nights, walks on the beach and parties all the way to the end.
Then we drove away with all our belongings shoved into a moving truck and our dog sitting shotgun.
We moved into our new home in the pouring rain and we were exhausted..
I told myself it was God's way of cleansing.. or something like that..

This move has been SO extremely hard.. I think I cried everyday for 2 months straight.
 It has also been extremely GOOD. 
It is like a reset button.
Pushing pause for a minute.
Slowing down.
Reflecting on our life.
Our family is closer than ever and we have been exploring this beautiful part of California any chance we get. I like to think I am teaching my girls about adventure, that change is good and necessary and that LOVE is what is most important. I have slowed down (not by choice but it is GOOD) Let's see if we can really make this place a home, or are we on a long vacation? We said we would give it 2 years. In the meantime, we will explore. Today, we will explore at the beach, not the beach we are used to but that is ok.

Bring it 2017...
I am ready for ya.
(kind of)

Half Moon Bay // Dec 31, 2016